Here you see a lady who was both good and bad at the same time. I was fine because I had a nice family, good friends and a roommate, but inside it was pretty rotten. I had low self-esteem, didn't feel good and refused to participate in social events, a poor diet, used food and crisps as comfort and my physical form was poor. Really bad.
If there's one event that sticks with me like cast iron, it's when I was with dad and my cousin on the mountain in Skjåk to fish in 2019. Dad has a secret water that he doesn't share with others because it's so big and nice trout there, but I should finally join up! We got up quite early and started to go uphill. Already after 30 meters up the mountainside I felt that this was going to be difficult. Yes, it was steep, but 75-year-old grandfather had managed it. I couldn't be in such bad shape that I was beaten by someone who was 75?! Now it should be said that grandfather has always walked in the mountains and that there is something else than going for a flat walk, but that stopped me. It was like I said to my dad and my cousin "I can get up, but I don't actually know if I can get down". The defeat for me was a fact.
I had thought about it for a long time, but when the corona pandemic came to Norway in 2020, I said to myself that "either you can continue as you are doing now and put on even more weight, or you will take it. Because now that's enough for me. I can't be bothered with this anymore, now I'll be fine".
There is never a right time, you just have to decide to start and take it accordingly. For me, it was about starting to forgive myself, and accepting that I wasn't where I wanted to be - both mentally and physically. Because it's actually a real defeat to realize that your form is so bad that you get tired of carrying shopping bags up the stairs, can't run for more than a minute continuously without feeling lactic acid in your whole body, or get sick at the thought of to shovel snow.
My goal was that I wanted to shine, have self-confidence, get better health, manage everyday tasks without getting out of breath and perhaps the biggest of all: I wanted to make this change so that the day, if, I become a mother, I can base in the snow and climb high in the trees. I didn't want my body and physical form to stop me from joining the game.
I don't quite know what I want with this text, but if there's one thing I want you to know, it's this: It's never too late. One small change may not do much, but many small changes over time will create a completely new everyday life for you. Use the bad feeling you have now as motivation and inspiration to work through it, and on the other side you will come out stronger, tougher and a better version of yourself. You have to own your own goal and your own motivation, whatever that may be. I can promise you that all the blood, sweat and tears are worth it